So last night, I was trying to go to sleep and all I could think about was all the things I'd done wrong yesterday. Most of those things revolved around my kids. I kept thinking "They are three and almost five (Sunday!). Have I already ruined them for life?"
This is a common thought in my head. What constitutes a "bad" parent? I've read articles on being an "okay" parent and how that is, really, okay. But there's still a gray area, isn't there?
I should point out that I don't think I'm a bad parent. Sometimes, though, I feel like not a very good one. I lose my temper, like any normal person. I raise my voice. Every once in a while, I just have to leave the room.
But my kids are well fed and taken care of. We read books at night. They have toys to play with and bikes to ride. They have clothes and shoes and coats for winter. I don't think it makes me a better parent because my kids have things. But does it help?
This morning I felt better, like I had done something right somewhere along the line. The almost five year old got up all on his own (after sleeping in his bed all night, which has been a struggle) and got dressed. He was also quick to start picking up toys he'd left out the night before. When I told my mom that, she figured it was because he knows his birthday is this weekend and he's trying to score some extra points. I like to think he was doing it because I really am an okay parent and I have taught him a thing or two along the way.