This will probably be a kind of all over the place entry, I didn't know what to call it. But I really do suck at titles. Most of the time I will use a song title. Because it's easy.
That's not even what I wanted to talk about, but I should take off on that topic. Maybe next time!
One thing I did want to talk about today was focus. I touched on this one other time, I think. I have a hard time staying focused on one thing at a time. Writing-wise, but also in a lot of other things. Like, if I'm trying to clean my house, for example. I'll walk through the living room, on my way to the laundry room and notice something to dust. Or toys to pick up. Or whatever. So I'll start on that, which will lead to something else, so on and so forth. Then two hours later I will realize I never started that load of laundry like I planned. Normally, however, I will always circle back and follow through like I should.
With writing, however, it's so very easy for me to be distracted. I'll get tired of whatever I'm working on. I'll come up with a new, bright shiny idea that sounds a lot better. Whatever it is, it always seems better. I have actually finished two novel length stories. Since then, I've struggled. Well, maybe three, but the third was written in pieces and isn't technically finished.
For NaNo last year, I started a YA paranormal romancey type thing. I only got about 20K by the end of November, but I kept up with it. For a while. Then I was pulled back in to the contemp YA that I started for NaNo 2009. It's in much better shape and begging to be finished. For some reason, though, I decided it wasn't good enough the way it was and I revamped my main character. Which required an edit of the already written part. So, at 61 pages in, I think the story is already better.
Oh, but I'm not done. Last year, I went on a weekend getaway to the lake. While there, I got an idea inspired by a story I wrote a hundred years ago when I was a teenager. I wrote a few pages and dropped it. Now, I'm planning another getaway for this summer and I so desperately want to pull THAT story back out.
I won't allow it. I won't finish anything ever again if I do. Because it's a vicious cycle that I need to break, dammit! And I will. I will finish something! And it will be good (maybe)! And one of these days I will get published!