Monday, January 21, 2013

On Being Pregnant

I'm not going to turn this into a pregnancy/ baby/kid blog. But now that Blogger has an app, it's easier for me to post. So I just wanted to share some things I've learned this time around.

My oldest is 7. My youngest is 5. Honest to god, I feel like A LOT has changed in five years. First, when I had my first appointment with the doctor, I had to sign a payment contract. With the other two, we had to meet with them to decide about payment, but we didn't have to sign anything.

Second, the technology available now is crazy. I didn't have an iPhone back then. When The Eldest was born, I didn't even have a digital camera! Now there's an app for tracking your pregnancy, week by week. There are apps for tracking feedings and diaper changes and which boob you fed them on last.

Then there's the maternity clothes. I'm not a fashionista by any means. But when I pulled out my old clothes, I knew I had a problem. Gone are the days of the huge shirts that gave you room to breathe. Everything is tight now. Plus most of the pants I had were the low rise, big piece of elastic that was supposed to hold up your pants below your ever growing belly. I hated maternity pants then and I hate them now. Now you wear the big, stretchy panel all the way over the belly. I'm only 20 weeks so my belly isn't huge, but its popped out there now. Pants are just the worse. I'm ready for a warm up so I can get some wear out of my pre-pregnancy maxi dresses.

But now I have an excuse to wear things I normally wouldn't. Like skinny jeans and leggings. And the tight shirts are okay. I stopped wearing Spanx as soon as I found out I was pregnant, but I still had to hide the belly for a while. Now that I actually look pregnant and not just fat, I can embrace it and show it off.

I'm most concerned about how labor and delivery will be different. I was induced with the other two because the doctor was cool with it. I have a different doctor now and I've heard he doesn't induce. It kind of scares me to think I might actually have to go into labor on my own (I'm a wuss). I had it pretty easy with them (no epidural! Whoo!). Will this one go even faster? So many questions and things to think about. But I think I'm ready for it.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Confessions

I'm pregnant.

I don't think I posted that yet. So there it is.

It's one of the big reasons why I didn't win NaNoWriMo. And also why my reading has fallen off. I've just been too tired.

But yesterday I was home with a sick kid, the Eldest. He hung out on the couch while I roamed around the house, doing various chores. Finally, I sat down in the chair. WITH A BOOK. I was so excited. Not only was it just a book, it was one that I'd been looking forward to reading.

I don't think I even got through chapter 1.

No, I didn't fall asleep. I just couldn't do it. I couldn't get into it. Or something. I don't know what's wrong with me. But I have a theory.

I blame my kids' school. What? Yeah. That's what I said.

It started off with Book It. I could totally handle that. It was on our schedule, no assigned reading. Whenever we wanted we could read whatever we wanted. It was fine.

Then the Youngest brings home a book and a note that says the kindergarten has a goal of reading 10 billion books this year. So she's bringing home a different book every night. Or we can read our own. Either way. But we HAVE TO READ OR BE BANISHED FORVER.

And now there's another "challenge" to read 10 million minutes by February 15 for a free ticket to Six Flags. Despite the fact that the kids have never been, this is the one they are most worried about winning. Boy are they going to be disappointed.

I have done my best to read to them every night. The Eldest is in first grade and is required to do his own reading. But he enjoys it, which is awesome. Me? I'm starting to love it less. Which may be part of the problem with my own reading. I feel like a failure as a parent because I can't keep up with ALL THE READING. Even if this counts for that and they count what they read at school. It's almost too much. Coming from someone who set a goal to read 100 books this year, there shouldn't be a thing as too much reading (unless you're in some god awful college history class or something).

So is this a normal feeling? Do you ever find yourself tired of reading? In need of a break? Parents, do you feel the pressure put on by the school? Or is this all some side effect of my wonky hormones?

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Random

I wanted to do a New Year's resolution post, but I think I waited too long. And it would be boring anyway. I want to get back into my reading habit. I want to get back into my writing habit. The last few months have been a creative drought. So I'd like to change that.

And just so you have something to read, here's a random playlist. One of those things where you put the iPod on shuffle and write down the first ten songs that play. But I'm at work, so it's the first ten I remembered to write down.

Super Bass by Nicki Minaj
Rescue Me by Daughtry
So Far Away by Staind
I Disappear by Metallica
The World You Love by Jimmy Eat World
Runaway by Love and Theft
Please Forgive Me by Bryan Adams
Sorry by Buckcherry
Always Something There to Remind Me by Naked Eyes
I Go to the Barn Because... by Band of Horses

Please don't judge me based on these songs. But if you have any suggestions for music I should try, by all means, let me know!