Today, it rained most of the day. So we couldn't go outside and do fun things (i.e. distractions). So I pulled out my completed manuscript that I've been trying to revise. And I worked on it. Then I read some blog posts about critiquing and finding a critique partner. Because that's what I need. I need someone to hold me accountable, someone to help me set goals and then stick to them.
Then I resorted to googling "how to find a critique partner" and something called Ladies Who Critique popped up. I looked around a bit and thought "what have I got to lose?" So I signed up and replied to a forum post. I've already made a couple possible connections. So we'll see what happens.
This time I think I know a little more about what to do and how to do it. The one other time I tried the CP thing, I was just jumping into the unknown. It seemed to work out okay; but as writers, we were in different places. And her book comes out this summer, I believe. While mine doesn't.
I'm still afraid that I don't want it bad enough. Then I think I do. I know I do. To see my name on the cover of a book? Seriously. I don't even know if I could handle it. So I can do this. I can do it and I will. This is the dream and I refuse to give up.